Hi Monday. It has been a moody Monday so far. Confidence level, motivation, spirit are all at the lowest level at the moment. I felt like I am the worse in the group. As much as I want to improve, I felt like I don't have the capability to improve. It's pretty much demotivating when all you get is comments on what you did bad. I understand very well that will help me to learn but you know, I need to know if I did anything good too. At least that would keep me motivated.
Sometimes, I enjoyed doing it but the truth is, most of the time I don't. Sometimes, all I hear in my head is "Lynette, just give up already" but then another voice whispers in my head "Lynette, don't give up just yet!". Everyday, I am trying my best to improve, to enjoy what I am doing but sometimes, it just get very discouraging and I just lost the will to carry on. There are some days where I just feel so worthless.
Oh well, it's not that I have any option at the moment. I have only one that is to carry on & make the best out of it. There is always still this hope that things will get better. That everything will be worth it in the end. I may not see it yet but I believe I will soon see the light at the end of tunnel.