Sunday, April 14, 2013

Dear Grandma....

Sunday, April 14, 2013
Mid semester break is over. Well, the truth is, it doesn't even feel like I am on a holiday at all with clinic replacement & thesis to deal with. Now I am back to this stressful place to start all over again. Boo. 

Anyways, yesterday was actually my maternal side grandma 5th death anniversary. Reminds me of her all over again. Can't believe it's already 5 years she left us. If only she is still around today, life would be so much different. 

I miss her voice. I miss her smile. I miss her company. I miss her food. I miss everything about her.  

Controlling my tears when I see this photo. I really really miss her a lot :'(

Dear Grandma, I hope you are having a good time with the angels in heaven. I am sure God is taking good care of you. Just want to tell you that you are always in our heart even though you are not here in person with us. We love you heaps :')

Wednesday, April 3, 2013

Thoughts in my head.

Wednesday, April 3, 2013

Just another typical Tuesday night, after clinic.
Half way through clinic. This means I am half way through my semester as well.
This means clinic viva & thesis viva are nearer too. No doubt, it's scary.
I get this pressure every time people ask me "When are you graduating?".
Yes, this is my final semester but I just am not confident enough yet to tell everyone " Yes, I will graduate this year".
But in everyone's mind, it's already "She is going to graduate this year".
Every time I tell someone I am in my final semester, they will all go "Oh, so you are going to graduate this year".
And my reply will always be "Yeah, hopefully. If everything goes smoothly".
I am glad they believed in me more than I believe myself but still, all these expectations give me tremendous pressure.
I wish I can have more confidence to say "Yes, I will graduate this year". 

Maybe I just need some time to clear my thoughts. And start believing in myself more. And start building up my confidence level. I will & I can with God's guidance :)

Mid semester break starts next week. Perfect time to recharge myself to face another half of the semester I guess.

Ending this post with a note-to-self. Try your best & hope for the best. 

Till then, xoxo.    
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